Junior Year = struggles?

1 years left until I'm in my cap N gown reaching for my diploma. But how can something so near feel so far? So little time so much obstacle to overcome. Looking at my surroundings, theres always people codemning me. Parent's with high expectations and kids looking up to me as their role model. A role model has her destiny set. Knows what she'll do with herself. Mostly, always have her head up and smile like theres not an obstacle she cant overcome. How do people expect me to be such thing when all I'm made up are flaws? How can my insecurities disappear when I have no role model to show me? No guidance growing up but motovations. No Love but supporters. Life isn't perfect nor a fantasy. So of course everyone struggles even me. I envied those who grew up with something I've never had. Wishing I could set the time back and create certain characters in my life. Better father figure around and a mother who would be around more and yell less often. Sometimes I feel if I were in shoes of another person with these kind of parents..I would cherish these moments.. And for those who are in my shoes.. Stick together with those who are pure hearted best friends. They may never know what your going through. But if hearts are linked together.. they can feel your pain. Breaking the habit of crying. Killing the tears thats being created from the eyes. Close the eyes from seeing what the world really is.